Jake and Vienna; The Bachelorette...

So I feel that as my guiltiest pleasure, I should comment on the recent events in the world of The Bachelor and Bachelorette. It's been a busy week for the show and I just feel like I need to throw in my 2 cents, not that it's the important or different from what anyone else is saying. Plus, I haven't written in a long time and I really want to write a new blog.

I'll start with the whole Jake and Vienna break up. I have thought about this far more than is healthy and I really don't know who or what I believe. Vienna was classy and sold her story to the oh so reputable Star "magazine". Her claim is that they haven't had sex for several months and the only time Jake ever kissed her was in front of the cameras. She said she broke up with him and she never felt good enough for him. She was caught with some random actor from a show on ABC Family and the tabloids went crazy with stories of her cheating on Jake. I honestly think the relationship was over long ago. Maybe not officially, but emotionally it sure seems like it. She definitely played the victim in her side of the story.

Jake on the other hand went to People to tell his side of the story. In a nutshell, Jake felt as though Vienna wasn't supportive enough of his entertainment career. He claims she was jealous that he was getting all these opportunities (Dancing with the Stars and Drop Dead Diva) and she wasn't. Makes sense. Why else would Vienna be able to perform on the finale of Dancing? I thought it was a little strange when I heard that. I thought it was just another cheesy ploy for them to get attention (especially since they danced to On the Wings of Love, gag me). In true Jake fashion, he claims what he and Vienna had was real and he doesn't regret their time together, just the way it ended.

See what I mean by the he said-she said? They also both claim to have broken off the relationship. Here's what I am sure about. They were both in this to find fame. I do think that Jake really does want to find love and I believe almost all of those cheesy things they say. Looking back at videos and stuff of them together (see what I mean by thinking about this way too much?), their relationship did seem fake and forced, which leads me to think that Vienna wasn't being completely dishonest about the bedroom issues. I still don't know what I think. I thought maybe typing it out would help, but it doesn't. Not even a little.

On to tonight's episode. It might be one of my favorite in the history of the show. It started off with the host, Chris Harrison, knocking on Ali's door in Turkey (this season was dubbed, "Around the World", must be rough). He tells Ali that he has some unfortunate news for her and phones, Jessie, a contestant with Ali on Jake's season. Jessie says that she is sitting there with a girl named Jessica who is the girlfriend of one of the bachelors, Justin "Rated-R". Jessica and Ali talk and Jessica tells Ali that the only reason that Justin was on the show was for his wrestling career. Jessica seems to feel horrible and Ali is pissed. Now how Jessie and Jessica know each other is beyond me. Maybe because they are both from Toronto? I have no clue, all I know is that Justin is in for a slap in the face. Ali and Chris go to the boys' room where Ali plans on confronting Justin...in front of the other guys. Awesome. He deserves it. Ali starts off by saying something along the lines of, "I know that this journey has been difficult for everyone. And especially for you Justin, you must really miss your girlfriend". Hilarious. I almost peed myself.

Needless to say, Justin is pissed that he got caught. He hobbles off (he broke his foot the day before he left for the show and was still in a walking boot). Ali runs after him yelling at him and telling him she wants to talk to him, but Justin won't give in. The cameras show Justin hobbling all around the hotel and outside. It was quite the site to behold. Eventually he sits down and talks with Ali. He claims that Jessica is his best friend and he doesn't know where she is getting this info. Ali isn't buying it and Justin leaves. Justin got what he wanted, his name out there. Now he isn't known as the guy who got the final rose, but as the douche bag with a broken foot who had a girlfriend. I guess there's no such thing as bad publicity, right? Wrong.

The preview for the rest of the season proves that more emotions will fly before the season is over. Ali goes to visit Frank and he tells Ali that they need to talk. He seems distraught over whatever he has to tell her. I have heard that he wants to go back to his ex back home, but I am not convinced. I have another theory. Producers casted Frank knowing that he was gay. He comes out to Ali in one of the final episodes, which gives way to Frank being the first gay bachelor. It's bound to happen and this story makes things interesting for sure. Though, I am not entirely sure I could be convinced to watch. It's not that I have anything against gay people, it's just that Frank drives me insane that I couldn't watch him that much. He's actually the only one left that I don't like.

I need a life...

I Fail at Sleeping

So it's 5:00 AM. Yes, 5 in the morning. And I can't sleep. I am dead tired, so I don't know what the issue is. Also, any spelling or grammar mistakes in the blog are being blamed on this fact. I thought what better thing to do when I can't sleep than write about what is going on in my fairly boring life.

Well, first and foremost, I got into Hamline. I am super stoked about it! It feels good to get a fresh start in life and I am excited to be doing something that will actually mean something to me. I plan on majoring in social justice and minoring in conflict studies, though I can create my own minor, so I think I am going to talk to my advisor about how to go about doing that once I get everything straightened out. After I finish there I may still go to graduate school for student affairs, but I am going to see where the wind takes me. I am not sure if I have it in me to apply to grad schools again. At least not anytime soon. This degree should take me no more than 2 years if I want a light load. Like I said, I am super pumped and whoever reads this will probably know before my family because I just got the letter today. HAHA!

I had to miss my cousin's fiancee's bridal shower which I was super bummed about. I was so looking forward to it, but I couldn't get anyone to work for me today. I will probably have to miss my cousin's grad party too because of work. I like having a job, but I don't like that I can't do anything on the weekends. I know it's our busy time of the week, but still. I am going to keep the job for the time being, but I am definitely keeping my eyes open for other opportunities. I really want to work in a bookstore! How awesome would that be?!?!

Yeah, I think that's all I've got for now. I might actually try to go to sleep now. I think my mom and step-dad are up, so that's funny.

I am thankful for...

I feel like the last couple posts haven't been the most uplifting things in the world. I realize I complain a lot. I am getting better at actually doing something about the things I complain about; and truth be told, compared to what most people in the world are dealing with, I don't have that much to complain about. I really feel like I am a grateful, positive person. Sometimes, that slips my mind though and I forget. Once I have time to mull things over, I remember what I have isn't so bad. That being said, I am dedicating this blog entry to things I am thankful for.

1) My Friends: They are the the best, most wonderful group of people. I have been blessed to surround myself with a pretty unique bunch of people. I have made so many friends throughout the years. Some have lasted a long time, some not so long, but I have learned something about myself in every single friendship. They have all brought out something in me that I didn't realize was there.

2) My Family: As much as they drive me crazy, I do love them; granted I may not always like them, but I will always love them.

3) My Faith: I haven't always been the most religious person in the world. I believe in God, I know that for sure and I do sometimes get a lot out of going to church, but I feel as though I am forced to go to church and I don't like that. I may not be practicing in the sense that I don't always go to church, but I don't think God cares to be honest. I believe that God does have a plan for us and that everything that happens to us, happens for a reason; I also believe that everything will work out in the end. I don't believe in coincidences. I believe that God talks to us in His own way and you just need to open your eyes to see it. It's just something that gives me peace.

4) My Education: I am extremely blessed to be able to have gotten the chance to go to college, especially since no one in my family had before me. I learned a lot in the classroom, but I learned way more outside of it. I learned about myself, I learned that I have to make decisions that are right for me regardless of what other people think, and I learned that I am a way stronger person that I ever had imagined I could be.

5) TV Shows: It's pathetic, borderline insane how much of my life revolves around TV shows. The Bachelorette and Glee topping the list. I get way too excited about these shows. Probably way more than is normal.

6) Books: I love reading. I have a ton of books that I want to read this summer. I usually read fiction, but in an effort to learn more about things that interest me, I have picked up quite a few non-fiction books. The one I am currently reading is Lies my Teacher Told Me. It's about how American textbooks sugar coat history so as not to make America look bad. It's really interesting and I like it a lot.

7) Music: Pretty self explanatory

8) The Internet: Pretty much how I spend all my time that is not used up by friends or work. I love finding new websites and random stories, pictures, whatever.

Blah...

So for the last few days I have just been in an irritated mood. I can't seem to shake it. Michael and I are going to go to hang out Friday so hopefully getting out of the house and throwing back a couple and just being away will help.

So like I said in my last post, my mom and step-dad went to spend the night, well, a couple nights at the casino. I decided that I would be nice and clean the house since no one else that lives here does. When they got home, all the dishes were done, I dusted, vacuumed, swept the kitchen, mopped the kitchen and the bathroom, did laundry, cleaned the bathroom (Lord knows the last time that was done). I didn't expect a whole lot when they got home, but they didn't even acknowledge it. And, of course, when the walked in the house, they didn't say a word to me. Of course, because I didn't clean the bathtub, they said something about that. Ugh. It's frustrating. Seriously, my sister does nothing to help out around the house. I have done the dishes more times since I have been home than she probably has in the last 3 years. Yet, all anyone does in this house is bitch. Which is ironic that I am bitching about them bitching. I don't really care.

If my step-dad is upset at me, he never comes directly to me to say anything. It always goes through my mom, who I don't take seriously at all. I don't think I would take my step-dad seriously though if started saying something to me now though. I don't feel like they care or anything. I don't share anything with them because they either 1)don't care or 2) will tell everyone. I am a fairly guarded person and if I want to tell someone something, I will. I dunno, I'm just not happy at home.