I miss River Falls, more now than ever. Living at home is the most stressful situation I can find myself in. I miss the feeling of belonging somewhere. My family doesn't make me feel welcome. I feel like a burden, like it's bad that I am here. I have no other choice. Financially, it's the only option for me. I can't afford to move out right now and it's killing me. I am so scared that I am going to end up living here my entire life. Really scared.
My mom and step-dad are playing Yahtzee right now; I am about 10 feet from them. My mom hasn't said more than 15 words to me since she got home at 3 and my step-dad hasn't said anything to me since he's been home. We don't talk, mostly it's because I get annoyed when they talk too much, so I guess it's my fault, but I've never felt comfortable talking to either of them about anything serious. I don't trust them first of all. If I say don't tell anyone, half the family knows by the next day.
I don't know if I am feeling like this because RA move-in is coming up and I feel like I should be there or if it's for some other reason, all I know is that I am missing home and my family more than I ever have this summer.
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